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Awake Right Now

by Vincent Blackshadow

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1.
WHEN THE ANGELS STOP HUMMIN WHEN THE RIVER RUNS DRY WHEN THE ENGINE STARTS RUMBLIN WILL YOU STILL BE ON THE DRIVER’S SIDE? I DON’T CLAIM TO KNOW MUCH ABOUT THIS, I KNOW I’M RIGHT I KNOW YOU’RE A SPIRAL STAIRCASE AND I’M MUCH TOO TIRED TO CLIMB ANYMORE TONIGHT I SHOULDN’T EVEN BE AWAKE RIGHT NOW I’VE NEVER REALLY BEEN ALIVE I GUESS THAT THIS IS WHAT THOSE SONGS ARE ABOUT, AND ALL OF THOSE SONGS STILL LEFT TO WRITE YOU DON’T OWE ME A PILOT I’M COMPLETELY SATISFIED MARVELING AT THE SPEED OF YOUR PEN CAN YOU HEAR ME, STREETWISE TRAVELGUIDE? IF I CAN’T CLEAR THE BRIDGE IF I CAN’T SEE MY FATE IF MY ABSTRACT PLAIN IS DELAYED WILL YOU STILL COME MEET ME AT THE GATE? I SHOULDN’T EVEN BE AWAKE RIGHT NOW I’D NEVER REALLY BEEN ALIVE, ‘TIL YOU ARRIVED I KNOW THAT THIS IS WHAT THOSE SONGS ARE ABOUT, BUT I CAN’T BEGIN TO TELL YOU WHY I’VE GOT GOOD INSTINCTS THEY JUST TAKE A LITTLE TIME I’VE GOT A GOOD FEELIN THAT EVERYTHING IS GONNA WORK OUT FINE
2.
GET ACROSS, SAY WHAT YOU NEED TO NOTHING MORE, NO ELABORATION LISTEN TO THE RESIDENT ALIEN WHEN SHE SAYS THAT YOU’RE MISTAKEN HAVE NO FEAR, SHE’S NOT FROM AROUND HERE BUT THE MOON, SHE’LL BE LEAVING IN JUNE THE RESIDENT ALIEN WHEN SHE TALKS, YOU FEEL LIKE A NOVICE TAKE EXTRA NOTES ON TERRESTRIAL TRAGEDIES THOSE ARE HER WORDS, I HEARD THEM THROUGH THE PHONE AS SHE TRIED TO CALL HOME FOR SOME FUNCTIONAL BONES THE RESIDENT ALIEN
3.
I USED TO THINK, IF I WORKED REAL HARD I COULD DO ANYTHING THAT I SET MY MIND TO I USED TO THINK, IF I WROTE GOOD SONGS YOU’D CLEAR MY NAME I USED TO THINK, BUT NOW I JUST WORRY MACHINES ARE BOUND TO TAKE YOUR JOB,  AND THAT’S OKAY, YOU GOT BETTER THINGS TO DO,  THAN PULL YOURSELF AWAY FROM YOU YOU’LL SPEND YOUR LIFE LONELY AND BROKE,  AND FREEZING COLD, PRODUCIN WHAT YOU DON’T CONTROL HOPE YOU LIKE GETTIN SOLD HOW DID I GET SO OLD? I USED TO THINK, ALL HOPE WAS LOST AND NOTHIN COULD PREVENT THE FALL OF MAN I USED TO THINK, IT WAS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME I USED TO THINK, THEN I MET YOU YOU LET ME KNOW THAT IT WAS FAR WORSE I STILL DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH THE TRUTH HURTS YOU TOOK MY HAND AND LED THE WAY THROUGH AND NOW THERE'S NOTHING TO HOLD ONTO... AND WHEN THE REVOLUTION COMES,  WHERE WILL YOU BE? STARIN INTO YOUR TV, CURSIN THE BOURGEOISIE? AND WHEN THE REVOLUTION FAILS, WHERE WILL YOU GO? ARE YOU MOVIN DOWN TO MEXICO TO BUILD YOURSELF A BUNGALOW? CLAIMIN SOMEONE ELSE’S HOME, AGAIN?
4.
IF I DON’T LOSE YOU HOW’M I GONNA LEARN? YOU DON’T SEEM TO KNOW IT BUT YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG STILL I’M GONNA MISS YOU WHEN EVERYTHING WAS PURE I OFTEN THINK ABOUT YOU BUT I DOUBT THE REVERSE MAN, IT REALLY MAKES ME SAD AND I KNOW, THAT I CAN NEVER GO BACK OTHERS, THEY CAN’T UNDERSTAND ME AND MY BROTHER, AND THAT WAS ALL WE HAD BROTHER, WE WAS ALL WE HAD A BROTHER, THEN HE BLEW IT LIKE THAT IF I DON’T LOSE YOU HOW’M I GONNA LEARN? YOU KNOW AS MUCH AS I DO SO HOW’D I GET IT WRONG? I GUESS I WAS YOUNGER BUT SISTER, SO WERE YOU I FEEL SO OLD NOW AND THERE’S NOTHIN I CAN DO, NOTHIN’ AND DAMN, IT REALLY FEELS SO BAD IF I COULD, WELL I WOULD TAKE IT ALL BACK SISTER, I’LL NEVER UNDERSTAND, BUT ME AND MY BROTHER, THAT WAS ALL WE HAD BROTHER, WE WAS ALL WE HAD OH BROTHER, WHY DID YOU BLOW IT LIKE THAT?
5.
I TOOK THE OUTBOUND TRAIN, HEADIN OUT OF HER HEAD RECITING CHAPTERS FROM BOOKS THAT I AIN’T NEVER READ REGRETTING ALL OF THOSE THINGS THAT I MAY HAVE SAID WHAT DID I SAY? I FORGET ANOTHER AFTERNOON DREAM ABOUT A TWO-HEADED CROW ANOTHER VALID EXCUSE TO MISS ANOTHER SHOW AND NOW THE BAND IS TALKIN LIKE THEY THINK THEY KNOW WHAT THEY DON’T KNOW, IS I STRUCK GOLD AND ALL THAT I WISH NOW, IS JUST TO SIT ON MY THRONE RIGHT BESIDE MY QUEEN MY QUEEN RED FLAG MY QUEEN, MY QUEEN RED FLAG MY RED FLAG QUEEN NOW SHE GATHERS THE DARKNESS, I BRING THE LIGHT SOMETIMES I BRING THE FLOWERS AND SHE BRINGS THE FIGHT SET IT ALL ASIDE, COME ON AND SEE ME TONIGHT WE CAN FLY ‘EM HIGH, I WOULDN’T MIND BEIN YOUR KNIGHT, IF YOU WOULDN’T MIND BEIN MY QUEEN MY QUEEN RED FLAG MY QUEEN, MY QUEEN RED FLAG GOD SAVE THE QUEEN
6.
Odds 02:05
I KNOW SHE’S OUT THERE AND I DON’T EXPECT HER TO WAIT IF THE ODDS WERE BETTER I WOULD LEAVE IT IN THE HANDS OF FATE I KNOW SHE’S OUT THERE, OH BUT I’M ENTITLED TO MY DOUBTS IT’S GONNA TAKE ME A LONG TIME, A LONG TIME, TO DISCOVER YOUR WHEREABOUTS BUT I KNOW SHE’S OUT THERE
7.
SEPTEMBER GIRL TOOK ME IN MAY SHE SCOFFED AWAY THE FIRST HELLO I CAN BE SWAYED  SHE’S NOT AFRAID TO SAY “HELL NO” I HAVEN’T MADE THE SAME SENSE SHE IMMIGRATED TO THIS WORLD A WORLD THAT REWARDS INCOMPETENCE IT’S IN THE CONTRACT, LITTLE GIRL AND NOBODY CARES IF IT MAKES ANY SENSE LAY DOWN ALL OF YOUR DEFENSES SING, AND DANCE SING, AND DANCE SEPTEMBER GIRL TOOK ME BACK HOME AND THEN SHE LEFT WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE SOPHISTICATED LIKE A POEM I CAN’T RECITE, SHE’S IMPOLITE I LOVE WHEN SHE ROLLS HER EYES
8.
SHE RAN HER TONGUE ALONG MY TEMPLE I WAS AWAKE, BUT NOW THINGS AIN’T SO SIMPLE I’M LEARNIN I CAN’T TRUST MY SENSES BUT IF I SAY TOO MUCH, I’LL SOUND PRETENTIOUS I’M IN A MELATONIN DREAM, NOTHIN HERE MEANS WHAT YOU THINK IT MEANS WELCOME TO MY MELATONIN DREAM… TRUE LOVE WILL FIND YOU ON MY HOUSEBOAT STAY AWAKE WITH ME, AND BREAK MY CELLPHONE SATAN’S TRYIN TO LEAVE A VOICEMAIL GOD’S IN BOSTON, SPINNIN RECORDS, WORKIN RETAIL THIS IS MY MELATONIN DREAM DON’T TRY TO MAKE SENSE OF THIS SCENE  THESE ARE ALL MY MELATONIN DREAMS HANG ONTO ALL YOUR CONSPIRACIES,  THEY’RE WORTH ALL THE PAIN DON’T YOU LOSE THEM, DON’T YOU REDUCE THEM TO SOMETHING SHALLOW AND SANE YEAH, YOU NEED SOMETHIN YOU CANNOT DEPEND UPON, YEAH, SOME KINDA PHENOMENON-AND ON-AND ON-AND ON
9.
I’VE BEGUN TO WALK THAT LINE, BETWEEN GOING AND FAILING, AND I FEEL FINE I’M PREPARED TO TASTE THAT BRINE WITH YOU, ROWING AND SAILING STRAIGHT INTO THE SEAS OF THE SUBLIME TAKE MY HAND AND CROSS THAT STREET, BETWEEN GOING & FAILING, AND WE WERE NEVER DISCREET TELL ME WORDS I CAN’T REPEAT, WITHOUT KNOWING I’M BAILING ON SECRETS I COULD ONLY DREAM TO KEEP THE TIME I SPENT MAY BE TIME I LAMENT IN THE END I’VE BEGUN TO WALK THAT LINE, BETWEEN  GOING AND FAILING, AND I FEEL FINE
10.
CHILLIN BY THE RIVERBANK, BEHIND THE TANKS, I'M WRITING SONGS FOR YOU
11.
TAKE ME OUT ON THE ROAD, TAKE ME OUT OF THE RAIN IT’S GETTIN LATE ON A SUNDAY NIGHT, AND I’M IN SO MUCH PAIN SHE’S THE FARTHEST THING FROM A HANGOVER CURE BUT I’M SO GLAD, SO GLAD I MISSED THE TRAIN YOU’VE GOT YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD, I’VE GOT MY EYES ON YOU AND HONEY, I’LL BE BACK NEXT WEEKEND, ON THE 72 I’VE GOT MY EYES ON YOU, AND YOU’VE GOT YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD WITH HAIR AS RED AS MAGMA, AND A MOUTH THAT NEVER SHUTS ALL THE DESPERATE BOYS FIGHTIN FOR THE FRONT-- YEAH SHE’S THE FARTHEST THING FROM A TOUGH NUT TO CRACK SO I SIT NEAR THE BACK, RELAX, HERE’S A STORY FROM THE BUS SHE’S GOT HER EYES ON THE ROAD I’VE GOT MY EYES ON HER I WAS LOOKIN OUT THE WINDOW NOW IT’S ALL A BLUR THE CAPTAIN OF THE SHIP SAYS WE’RE SAILIN AWAY ACROSS THE LOMBARD SEA, AND BACK TO ST. JOHN’S BAY DUE TO NASTY WEATHER, WE MAY NOT SURVIVE BUT I FEEL ALIVE FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME  YOU’VE GOT YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD, I’VE GOT MY EYES ON YOU PUT THE RUBBER TO THE PUDDLE, AND JUST CRUISE STRAIGHT THROUGH I’VE GOT MY EYES ON YOU, YOU’VE GOT YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD I DON’T KNOW WHERE WE’RE GOIN, BUT WE CAN’T GET THERE SLOW
12.
You To My Me 03:35
I ALWAYS KNEW THAT THIS COULD HAPPEN WE’VE REACHED THE AGE OF AMBIGUITIES EVEN WHEN YOU’RE IN ANOTHER DIMENSION, WELL THAT’S COOL, WE STILL GOT CHEMISTRY YOU’RE THE CAMPBELL TO MY PETTY YOU’RE THE LIFESON TO MY LEE YOU’RE THE DEANER TO MY GENER, BUT MOST OF ALL YOU ARE THE YOU TO MY ME EVERYTHING CHANGED SINCE WE WERE YOUNGER NOWADAYS WE JUST SIT AROUND  AND CONTEMPLATE WHAT IT ALL MEANS EVEN IF WE LOST ALL THAT PRECIOUS INNOCENCE WELL THAT’S COOL, WE DIDN’T LOSE THE DREAM I’M STILL THE ARM TO YOUR TURNER I’M STILL THE MICK TO YOUR KEITH YOU’RE THE NELS CLINE TO MY JEFF TWEEDY, BUT MOST OF ALL-- YOU’RE THE YOU TO MY ME YOU’RE THE SUMMERS TO MY STING I’M THE KATO TO YOUR KING MAN, YOU ARE EVERYTHING SO LET’S GET TOGETHER AND JAM YOU CAN PLAY GUITAR, AND I’LL SING YOU CAN BE THE GORHAM TO MY LYNOTT YOU CAN BE THE MAY TO MY MERCURY YOU’LL BE THE HARRISON TO MY LENNON, ONCE AGAIN YOU’LL BE THE YOU TO MY ME

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The third in a series of LPs recorded mostly on cassette between 2018 and 2021.

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released February 27, 2022

Jesse Stowell - drums on "I Used to Think" and "Queen Red Flag"

Zach Litchman - tambourine on "I Used to Think"

Drum machine on "Brother (We Was All We Had)" recorded at ShadyTown Studio in Bellingham, WA.

All songs written, performed, recorded, and mixed by Vincent Blackshadow except "You To My Me" (mixed by Stone Jones).

Cover art by Vincent Blackshadow.

Mastered by Evan Schiller.

Gratitude to Evan Schiller, the Stowells, the Trosloys, the Pastas, the fine folks at ShadyTown, Queen Red Flag, School Nights, and Karl Marx.

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